A new month? YES!

Alright.


Going to be all sorts of hardcore.

1. Gym every single day -- NO EXCUSES.
2. Metamucil -- does it work? We'll see.
3. Hydroxycut
4. No fast food, no matter what. Not even low cal stuff.
5. No eating before 7am or after 7pm.


I am determined to lose at LEAST 10 pounds. Hopefully more, but that'll be the bare minimum goal.

Ugh.

Last night.

Fasting.

I'm on a liquid fast starting now.


I can't sleep.
Too much caffeine.


Toga party tomorrow night...sigh.

Me and My Ex

Never mind how huge I am.

Seriously?

I'm too scared to weigh myself.

My ex-boyfriend came into town and I lost total control. Just kept eating horrible foods all the time...never going to the gym.

So, it begins again (for the 100000th time) tomorrow. Or rather, today. I'm MAKING myself get up at 6am to go to the gym before school. And I'm going to get up at 6am EVERY day. No matter what. No matter how tired I am. I am a slave to my bed.

Spring break is coming and that makes my heart start pounding like nothing else...

Also, after summer, I'm going to be back in Portland and I'm going to be seeing everyone I left. Mostly old flames...so I have to look amazing.

Calorie LIMIT: 500
NO CARBS!


Ugh.

As soon as I hit 135lbs, I'll really give a shit about the patch and quitting smoking. I can't quit smoking and eating at the same time. Too much.

I want to be like Carrie Bradshaw. How 2000 of me. I love her.
I want to be like Effie...
Ugh. SO MANY.

Fattie.

Keeps going down. Slowly.

Weight 144.4lbs

Going down so slowly...but at least it's not going up pound by pound.


I got the entire Woody Allen collection today as a gift from my ex-boyfriend. I'm incredibly happy. :3


Ate some crap today, I don't feel like posting it.

My moods are insane these days...


FOUR whole days without smoking, though! Are you proud?! I am. After 6 years of chain smoking, I can't believe the Patch is actually working.

My ex-boyfriend.

I hate formspring.me.


I asked him, anonymously, which relationship he wishes he could take back.
He said "Probably you. LOL. JK. No, seriously." I know him, and I know he knows it was me.

I haven't really stopped crying since I read it.